Before

Before
This was taken Nov. '08.. a year and a month before I started dieting...so I was a little bigger than this..

10/7/10

Lost in the dust of the wagon...

...but I'm hoping that this will embarrass me back onto the wagon.... This is a MAJOR EFFIN SET BACK!

*CURRENT WEIGHT: 221 lbs.*
I know not to even attempt to even catch back up to the wagon, I'm just going to keep it in view until MONDAY. I know I know.. I should just jump on it.. BUT I have family coming into town and we're going to the fair... need I say more?? SO to save myself the self-bitching session afterwards, I'm waiting til MONDAY. I will also be able to go shopping for the foods I need this weekend. 

I'm hoping to be able to get my ass up out of bed and back into the gym. It's just really hard to get out of bed at 4 in the morning.. but it's even harder to go in the evenings after I've settled down, ya know? And I'm gone to Dustin's a lot, too... so I need just to just suck it up and make my ass get out of bed... lol

We shall see.. What will help out A LOT is the cooler weather.. Cooler weather = not hard to eat soup. I cannot make myself eat soup in the warmer months.. I will vomit.. it's really weird... BUT when it's cooler I can tear up some soup.. SO I should be able to knock off some weight that way.. 

What's going to be hard to kick is my new addiction to MALTS! Wait, who am I kidding... it's not a new addiction... VANILLA shakes/malts/whatever are a HUGE WEAKNESS for me!!! It's like my soda.. lol.. I think I'll be able to.. I can at least wing myself down to 1 a week.. I think that's doable.. 

So, yeah.. there you have it.. What majorly sucks is the fact that I see what needs to be done, but I just don't do it!! BUT It's rough getting into my size 16s and it's not pretty... not that it was that pretty to begin with, BUT it was a lot prettier 21 lbs ago, lmao.

I'll keep you updated... Luckily I haven't been going to the aspen clinic, so at least I'm not wasting money that way...

2 comments:

Queen JB said...

when I move there I will be your gym partner! :)

good luck girlie

Donna Jo said...

You'll definitely be a LIFE SAVER!!!